Cocoon Year: Weeks 37 & 38

Cocoon Year: Weeks 37 & 38

Digital art of a sprig of butterfly milkweed. It's done in a cel-shaded style with a strictly skinny clean outlines, some that are colored and some that are black. The milkweed is blooming with three little pompoms full of tiny orange flowers. Tucked under a single leaf near the bottom of the plant is a hidden cocoon. It's weird how small the cocoon is on this plant. A watermark reads http://hmcgill.art.

Full Steam Ahead

Revising continues to feel fun. As I sort out more and more of my creative projects going elsewhere, I have more time to return to Warlock’d. Having something on each page of the script — no matter how poorly-written — makes it feel like there’s something there to be molded. I’m not returning to some document that I must brute-force til the end. I’m reading some of my own writing and actually seeing what to do next, if not a clear trail marker then little bits and pieces, acorns and feathers.

I’m not sure how well my pacing is going this draft. I could be writing too much. However, snipping and adjusting also feels easy when I get to do it. Writing too much is better than not writing at all. So, I think it may be best to reserve pacing judgement for Round Two. The reason I feel confident leaving the pacing in the scenes alone right now is because I workshopped an outline which I am largely sticking to! The outline still makes sense to me and it’s very helpful that it wasn’t rushed. The writing I’m doing sticks to that outline. Therefore I don’t have to worry.

I’ve had a few people insist that I am much too hard on myself and it’s preventing projects from coming out — which is true — but I don’t actually think I’m too hard on myself. I think I’m lacking the sort of environment that can churn out a lovely polished story every few months (like a writer’s room for a TV show).  The projects not coming out or not being finished is still a problem, just not in the context of my quest to become someone who can wrangle a decent set of words. Like, no. People have to learn how to do things. Learning takes time. I’m not going to let anyone convince me to sit on my stuff as if it’s all right, when I myself am not totally satisfied with it. That’s actually really bad for my mental health!

We’ve been watching Only Murders in the Building and I have to say, the main trio of podcasting detectives has great charisma. Maybe the show is more of a comedy than a mystery, or maybe I’ve been looking at the sausage factory too intently and know too much about how the sausage is made, but I don’t feel any suspense or sense of gears turning as the plot progresses. Mystery writing used to have that feeling to me, like the author was logically laying things out.

But, maybe I should feel more free to view the mystery genre as a storytelling device. Characters, settings, and plot twists are vehicles for making something clear about a story being told backwards. Maybe the genre is also about setting expectations to an audience. In a fantasy story you generally expect the Hero’s Journey, so you have to do a fresh take on that and no amount of replacing horses with birds can do that for you. In a mystery, a relatively simple happening becomes complex with misdirections, mostly carried out through dialogue.

What I would hope for with Warlock’d is a simple murder story, but characters simultaneously progress and sidetrack that story. This all leads into a moment of fantastical wonder, with implications for the real world. But I don’t know how to do this, other than have a ton of dialogue and anecdotes towards the beginning, flashback abuse, and then plod towards the magical scene that reveals the tone of the whole thing.

Anyway. This would be so much easier with my own personal writer’s room. I think anyone would agree with that! But hey, I’ve never claimed to write literature here.

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Cocoon Year: Weeks 37 & 38

Cocoon Year: Weeks 37 & 38

Full Steam Ahead Revising continues to feel fun. As I sort out more and more of my creative projects going elsewhere, I have more time to return to Warlock’d. Having something on each page of the script — no matter how poorly-written — makes it feel like there’s...

Cocoon Year: Weeks 35 & 36

Cocoon Year: Weeks 35 & 36

The Joy of Revision These last two weeks have been quite busy with freelance work. In between I squeak in writing. I finally came up with a full-ish script, bar the first scene and a court scene for later in the book. Now, I am reading through the script from front...

Cocoon Year: Weeks 33 & 34

Cocoon Year: Weeks 33 & 34

The Final 10% is 90% of the Work Well, I’ve done it. I wrote through each of the scenes in my new, concise and focused outline. I didn’t ‘believe’ anything that was happening as I was writing it, but on cursory glance-over, a lot of the characters feel visceral, real,...

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Cocoon Year: Weeks 35 & 36

Cocoon Year: Weeks 35 & 36

Digital art of a smooth monarch butterfly chrysalis. The art style is cel-shaded with minor amounts of soft shading, and very delicate thin lineart. The chrysalis is seafoam green with subtle shine. The veins of the future butterfly's wings can be seen through the shell.

The Joy of Revision

These last two weeks have been quite busy with freelance work. In between I squeak in writing. I finally came up with a full-ish script, bar the first scene and a court scene for later in the book. Now, I am reading through the script from front and editing as I read.

This already feels so much better than what I used to do, which was write Chapter 1 and revise it a million times since I had to start at the beginning to read the draft and figure out where I was. Then, give up at the enormity of it all, and write Different Chapter 1 of Different Book.

Another pleasant discovery is that dialogue doesn’t have to be accurate to character voice during the first or second drafts. All dialogue has to do is convey important information, enough to bridge to the next scene. Mostly it’s revealing character motivation or fleshing out the setting with character opinions and senses. I can always go back and edit in character voice and conversational cadence later. Never sure which one to go for first, but…that is Future Hannah’s problem.

Yes, I am very happy with the utterly messy — and complete! — state of this first draft. Everything is there, it just needs refinement and shuffling. Already I’ve simplified additional parts of the plot in favor of clear direction. It feels really, really good, much better than slopping something wordy out and hoping a random beta reader will help me make sense of it. There is just enough of the final product peeking through the mess, it’s like a guiding light. There is just enough mess to feel fun, like I’m making meaningful changes each time I return to the story. Best of all I do feel like I can do the rest of this by myself, outside of the occasional support from my spouse.

For instance I had a dead body that gets moved around by various characters, and I was trying to get the first ‘move’ to happen on top of introducing the inn and the murder suspects. It was really clumsy so I talked it over with my spouse and we both decided that an elephant really needed to be involved. But not really. Instead the body doesn’t get moved in the first chapter, which opened up so much room for introducing the various characters and how they all might be a little bit dirty.

I have to be careful, though. Sometimes in my head the script is already ‘complete’, so it can be hard for me to wheel back into writing mode. Drawing is still much more fun than writing, so I have to convince myself to continue abandoning one for the other. The free drawing workshop is coming back from hiatus so I’ll need to reserve Thursday mornings for that once more, and hope it doesn’t keep me from writing.

However, the weather has calmed down. It’s finally back to warm jammies and blankie mode — barring the odd heat wave here and there. My favorite months of the year are coming up. I really adore fall and all the energy it gives me. Walks are just so much better when it’s cloudy out and I can wear a cute jacket.

Now, what I really need to do is knuckle down on the last few freelance tasks to open my schedule back up. I’m hoping to hurtle into a complete, revised script by the end of the year. I’m trying so hard not to rush it, to just let it get written and polished and expanded.

But I want to draw so, SO badly. I want to be challenged by landscape design and characters at weird angles and readable expressions and legible storytelling. I want to color it all in with moody themes and artsy twists.  Every time I’ve leaped into the art too early, I’ve regretted it. These days, though, I have such a hard time deciding ‘when’ to pull the trigger.

When, though?

Hopefully soon.

As a result of volunteering, I was very late writing my blog post here. I hope to include further Cocoon Year posts as part of my SAWgust progress. Already, I’m making a lovely amount of progress on my screenplay version of this story.

August is the worst month, but at least I have SAWgust!

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Cocoon Year: Weeks 37 & 38

Cocoon Year: Weeks 37 & 38

Full Steam Ahead Revising continues to feel fun. As I sort out more and more of my creative projects going elsewhere, I have more time to return to Warlock’d. Having something on each page of the script — no matter how poorly-written — makes it feel like there’s...

Cocoon Year: Weeks 35 & 36

Cocoon Year: Weeks 35 & 36

The Joy of Revision These last two weeks have been quite busy with freelance work. In between I squeak in writing. I finally came up with a full-ish script, bar the first scene and a court scene for later in the book. Now, I am reading through the script from front...

Cocoon Year: Weeks 33 & 34

Cocoon Year: Weeks 33 & 34

The Final 10% is 90% of the Work Well, I’ve done it. I wrote through each of the scenes in my new, concise and focused outline. I didn’t ‘believe’ anything that was happening as I was writing it, but on cursory glance-over, a lot of the characters feel visceral, real,...

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