Cocoon Year: Weeks 37 & 38

Cocoon Year: Weeks 37 & 38

Digital art of a sprig of butterfly milkweed. It's done in a cel-shaded style with a strictly skinny clean outlines, some that are colored and some that are black. The milkweed is blooming with three little pompoms full of tiny orange flowers. Tucked under a single leaf near the bottom of the plant is a hidden cocoon. It's weird how small the cocoon is on this plant. A watermark reads http://hmcgill.art.

Full Steam Ahead

Revising continues to feel fun. As I sort out more and more of my creative projects going elsewhere, I have more time to return to Warlock’d. Having something on each page of the script — no matter how poorly-written — makes it feel like there’s something there to be molded. I’m not returning to some document that I must brute-force til the end. I’m reading some of my own writing and actually seeing what to do next, if not a clear trail marker then little bits and pieces, acorns and feathers.

I’m not sure how well my pacing is going this draft. I could be writing too much. However, snipping and adjusting also feels easy when I get to do it. Writing too much is better than not writing at all. So, I think it may be best to reserve pacing judgement for Round Two. The reason I feel confident leaving the pacing in the scenes alone right now is because I workshopped an outline which I am largely sticking to! The outline still makes sense to me and it’s very helpful that it wasn’t rushed. The writing I’m doing sticks to that outline. Therefore I don’t have to worry.

I’ve had a few people insist that I am much too hard on myself and it’s preventing projects from coming out — which is true — but I don’t actually think I’m too hard on myself. I think I’m lacking the sort of environment that can churn out a lovely polished story every few months (like a writer’s room for a TV show).  The projects not coming out or not being finished is still a problem, just not in the context of my quest to become someone who can wrangle a decent set of words. Like, no. People have to learn how to do things. Learning takes time. I’m not going to let anyone convince me to sit on my stuff as if it’s all right, when I myself am not totally satisfied with it. That’s actually really bad for my mental health!

We’ve been watching Only Murders in the Building and I have to say, the main trio of podcasting detectives has great charisma. Maybe the show is more of a comedy than a mystery, or maybe I’ve been looking at the sausage factory too intently and know too much about how the sausage is made, but I don’t feel any suspense or sense of gears turning as the plot progresses. Mystery writing used to have that feeling to me, like the author was logically laying things out.

But, maybe I should feel more free to view the mystery genre as a storytelling device. Characters, settings, and plot twists are vehicles for making something clear about a story being told backwards. Maybe the genre is also about setting expectations to an audience. In a fantasy story you generally expect the Hero’s Journey, so you have to do a fresh take on that and no amount of replacing horses with birds can do that for you. In a mystery, a relatively simple happening becomes complex with misdirections, mostly carried out through dialogue.

What I would hope for with Warlock’d is a simple murder story, but characters simultaneously progress and sidetrack that story. This all leads into a moment of fantastical wonder, with implications for the real world. But I don’t know how to do this, other than have a ton of dialogue and anecdotes towards the beginning, flashback abuse, and then plod towards the magical scene that reveals the tone of the whole thing.

Anyway. This would be so much easier with my own personal writer’s room. I think anyone would agree with that! But hey, I’ve never claimed to write literature here.

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Cocoon Year: Weeks 37 & 38

Cocoon Year: Weeks 37 & 38

Full Steam Ahead Revising continues to feel fun. As I sort out more and more of my creative projects going elsewhere, I have more time to return to Warlock’d. Having something on each page of the script — no matter how poorly-written — makes it feel like there’s...

Cocoon Year: Weeks 35 & 36

Cocoon Year: Weeks 35 & 36

The Joy of Revision These last two weeks have been quite busy with freelance work. In between I squeak in writing. I finally came up with a full-ish script, bar the first scene and a court scene for later in the book. Now, I am reading through the script from front...

Cocoon Year: Weeks 33 & 34

Cocoon Year: Weeks 33 & 34

The Final 10% is 90% of the Work Well, I’ve done it. I wrote through each of the scenes in my new, concise and focused outline. I didn’t ‘believe’ anything that was happening as I was writing it, but on cursory glance-over, a lot of the characters feel visceral, real,...

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Cocoon Year: Weeks 35 & 36

Cocoon Year: Weeks 35 & 36

Digital art of a smooth monarch butterfly chrysalis. The art style is cel-shaded with minor amounts of soft shading, and very delicate thin lineart. The chrysalis is seafoam green with subtle shine. The veins of the future butterfly's wings can be seen through the shell.

The Joy of Revision

These last two weeks have been quite busy with freelance work. In between I squeak in writing. I finally came up with a full-ish script, bar the first scene and a court scene for later in the book. Now, I am reading through the script from front and editing as I read.

This already feels so much better than what I used to do, which was write Chapter 1 and revise it a million times since I had to start at the beginning to read the draft and figure out where I was. Then, give up at the enormity of it all, and write Different Chapter 1 of Different Book.

Another pleasant discovery is that dialogue doesn’t have to be accurate to character voice during the first or second drafts. All dialogue has to do is convey important information, enough to bridge to the next scene. Mostly it’s revealing character motivation or fleshing out the setting with character opinions and senses. I can always go back and edit in character voice and conversational cadence later. Never sure which one to go for first, but…that is Future Hannah’s problem.

Yes, I am very happy with the utterly messy — and complete! — state of this first draft. Everything is there, it just needs refinement and shuffling. Already I’ve simplified additional parts of the plot in favor of clear direction. It feels really, really good, much better than slopping something wordy out and hoping a random beta reader will help me make sense of it. There is just enough of the final product peeking through the mess, it’s like a guiding light. There is just enough mess to feel fun, like I’m making meaningful changes each time I return to the story. Best of all I do feel like I can do the rest of this by myself, outside of the occasional support from my spouse.

For instance I had a dead body that gets moved around by various characters, and I was trying to get the first ‘move’ to happen on top of introducing the inn and the murder suspects. It was really clumsy so I talked it over with my spouse and we both decided that an elephant really needed to be involved. But not really. Instead the body doesn’t get moved in the first chapter, which opened up so much room for introducing the various characters and how they all might be a little bit dirty.

I have to be careful, though. Sometimes in my head the script is already ‘complete’, so it can be hard for me to wheel back into writing mode. Drawing is still much more fun than writing, so I have to convince myself to continue abandoning one for the other. The free drawing workshop is coming back from hiatus so I’ll need to reserve Thursday mornings for that once more, and hope it doesn’t keep me from writing.

However, the weather has calmed down. It’s finally back to warm jammies and blankie mode — barring the odd heat wave here and there. My favorite months of the year are coming up. I really adore fall and all the energy it gives me. Walks are just so much better when it’s cloudy out and I can wear a cute jacket.

Now, what I really need to do is knuckle down on the last few freelance tasks to open my schedule back up. I’m hoping to hurtle into a complete, revised script by the end of the year. I’m trying so hard not to rush it, to just let it get written and polished and expanded.

But I want to draw so, SO badly. I want to be challenged by landscape design and characters at weird angles and readable expressions and legible storytelling. I want to color it all in with moody themes and artsy twists.  Every time I’ve leaped into the art too early, I’ve regretted it. These days, though, I have such a hard time deciding ‘when’ to pull the trigger.

When, though?

Hopefully soon.

As a result of volunteering, I was very late writing my blog post here. I hope to include further Cocoon Year posts as part of my SAWgust progress. Already, I’m making a lovely amount of progress on my screenplay version of this story.

August is the worst month, but at least I have SAWgust!

Care to read more?

Cocoon Year: Weeks 37 & 38

Cocoon Year: Weeks 37 & 38

Full Steam Ahead Revising continues to feel fun. As I sort out more and more of my creative projects going elsewhere, I have more time to return to Warlock’d. Having something on each page of the script — no matter how poorly-written — makes it feel like there’s...

Cocoon Year: Weeks 35 & 36

Cocoon Year: Weeks 35 & 36

The Joy of Revision These last two weeks have been quite busy with freelance work. In between I squeak in writing. I finally came up with a full-ish script, bar the first scene and a court scene for later in the book. Now, I am reading through the script from front...

Cocoon Year: Weeks 33 & 34

Cocoon Year: Weeks 33 & 34

The Final 10% is 90% of the Work Well, I’ve done it. I wrote through each of the scenes in my new, concise and focused outline. I didn’t ‘believe’ anything that was happening as I was writing it, but on cursory glance-over, a lot of the characters feel visceral, real,...

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Cocoon Year: Weeks 33 & 34

Cocoon Year: Weeks 33 & 34

A big fat monarch butterfly caterpillar cocoon. It is hard, shiny, and ridged, colored in seafoam green. It has a little black stem at the top and the wings are clearly visible against the shell. Watermark: http://hmcgill.art.

The Final 10% is 90% of the Work

Well, I’ve done it. I wrote through each of the scenes in my new, concise and focused outline. I didn’t ‘believe’ anything that was happening as I was writing it, but on cursory glance-over, a lot of the characters feel visceral, real, and like they’re actively making decisions and speaking their mind.

The document, unformatted, is about sixty pages long. Screenplay formatting ought to at least double that. So it may be longer than necessary.

I have two scenes left to write: First is a court scene where Stone defends and exonerates all of the innocent folks in the inn, as well as explains what really happened to Margo, the murder victim.

The second scene is the intro scene to the whole catastrophe.

I’ve long had an idea of guiding the reader through the alleyways of Paris, until they get to the inn. I wonder if I can retrofit it to bring the reader into Paris, or if this is simply an undead darling that needs to die again. What I want to do is introduce the inn as:

  1. A place where people can get away from being overseen by those in power, and be themselves.
  2. Rough around the edges, but fine enough.
  3. Perhaps a bit strained by outside forces.
  4. A place that readers will care about, and will miss once it’s gone and the story’s over.

Additionally, I want to introduce the theme of friendly fire, collateral damage, and things done in the name of the ‘greater good’. There is a political movement in America that wholeheartedly believes the only ‘good’ things must happen at the cost of other’s joy. Pain is the only thing that makes something ‘real’. So, I want to address that, using the metaphor of how a king will order a farmer’s crops to be burned as the farmer retreats into the protection of his castle. The invaders must not get those crops. Therefore…no one gets them. The metaphor will extend to places of safety…ie, an inn. To ensure his people’s ‘safety’, a king would absolutely burn his own buildings.

I’m also uneasily juggling the idea of the hidden hero, who lets someone else take the stage as the driving force for half the book before calmly stepping in and being the only one actually capable of handling a demonic situation. I started out mocking these characters up as already knowing each other as rivals from University, but as I wrote it didn’t make that much sense. Stone needs to act as nothing more than a goldsmithery scribe until his real profession (necromancy) is revealed. It just seems more fun and interesting for everyone else to know Stone’s potential but this other guy does not. I need to figure out more details about how they’re supposed to interact.

Then, once new scenes are written, what remains is revision. I had wanted to do all that this month, but SAWgust wasn’t helpful this year. It seems to be only helpful when I have thumbnails and art ready to go. Otherwise I simply don’t get much feedback at all. Nobody really comments on writing progress.

In addition to that, I must respect freelance work. So, Warlock’d has slowed a bit, but I’m glad to get the chance to collect my thoughts on my progress because otherwise it would feel like I’d done no work on it at all. It turns out I’ve done plenty here and I should be happier with it.

But, I guess the anxiety comes creeping in as it always does. I’ve never felt like Warlock’d was completely welcome at the table. It’s not something people seek out to read. It’s sort of feeling like something I’m forcing. I’d like to be able to move past this but it’s hard with no one to chat it through with.

That said, I think I will finally complete it this year and be somewhat interested in my own writing. Hopefully interested enough to do the artwork for it.

As a result of volunteering, I was very late writing my blog post here. I hope to include further Cocoon Year posts as part of my SAWgust progress. Already, I’m making a lovely amount of progress on my screenplay version of this story.

August is the worst month, but at least I have SAWgust!

Care to read more?

Cocoon Year: Weeks 37 & 38

Cocoon Year: Weeks 37 & 38

Full Steam Ahead Revising continues to feel fun. As I sort out more and more of my creative projects going elsewhere, I have more time to return to Warlock’d. Having something on each page of the script — no matter how poorly-written — makes it feel like there’s...

Cocoon Year: Weeks 35 & 36

Cocoon Year: Weeks 35 & 36

The Joy of Revision These last two weeks have been quite busy with freelance work. In between I squeak in writing. I finally came up with a full-ish script, bar the first scene and a court scene for later in the book. Now, I am reading through the script from front...

Cocoon Year: Weeks 33 & 34

Cocoon Year: Weeks 33 & 34

The Final 10% is 90% of the Work Well, I’ve done it. I wrote through each of the scenes in my new, concise and focused outline. I didn’t ‘believe’ anything that was happening as I was writing it, but on cursory glance-over, a lot of the characters feel visceral, real,...

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Cocoon Year: Weeks 31 & 32

Cocoon Year: Weeks 31 & 32

Digital art of a caterpillar at the very end of pupation, with its body scrunched up at the top into wrinkles and proto-wings clearly visible pressing against the shell of the green cocoon. The scrunchy caterpillar body has thick white, dark gray, and peach stripes. The art style has thin outlines and cel shading. Watermark at the bottom: http://hmcgill.art.

Cocoon Year: When Accountability Gets in the Way of… Accountability?

As I continue my cocooning, I find that the act of blogging about it may in fact be getting in the way of actually working on the script. The cocoon artworks are only here to continue the theme, because I promised myself I’d see the whole thing through. As the heat waves rise and fall, it may just be the normal summer doldrums getting to me. I start longing for new projects, or at least to do anything but write.

Lately I’ve been a lot more social than normal, actually visiting friends in real life. Catching up on my past and all that. Everyone just kind of meandered from the Bay Area over to the Pacific Northwest for various reasons. We have been eating incredible donuts and terrible, no-good avocado toast. It really wasn’t worth forgoing a mortgage on a house.

As far as SAWgust goes, what’s eating most of my time there is supporting other people. I’m not getting an equal amount of support back on my project, so I will have to balance my time and attention spent there. Luckily people seem to like my prompts, which roll out automatically each day. I think that is going to have to be enough for me. I will have to continue to find my own lonely way through my project, per usual. It was unrealistic to expect otherwise.

Writing is still going well, easily even — suspiciously easy. As of writing here, I have about a third of the script drafted and ready for revision by the end of the month. It could be even longer if it had correct formatting. I am over halfway through the scenes that I had in mind. one scene in particular I glossed over and should be a lot longer than I originally plotted out. As I’m writing I’m trying to look for points of escalation, to extend the story and tease the reader in an entertaining way. This is instead of adding entirely new subplots or characters. I think this is a much better strategy for writing, to investigate little twists and turns and developments, rather than pull in new things. The story in general is also so small now, it needs twisty little details like that.

Warlock’d also has a new working subtitle now: NO VACANCY. The whole story takes place in a very full in. I also enjoy the wordplay hinting at the idea of the dead person still sticking around as a character in the story. They’re not gone. The body is not vacant. In general the idea of a spirit world being nothing and something at the same time also seems to fit ‘vacancy’ as a concept.

To Hell, with Love’ is still an incredible subtitle, in my opinion, but it might work better for a sequel. Perhaps this sequel involves a corrupt knight! Who knows! I love a good fall from grace. I also have the titles ‘The Crusades Marginalia’ and ‘Red Letter Days’ on lockdown, with very small ideas attached. It’s all mostly ripped up elements from previous drafts to go with each title.

And still, there is nary an actual warlock to be found in the story. Even though people work with demons, they’re often clerics instead. Or, you know, bucking the entire trend of being a gaming class at all, within a story.

It does feel like maybe I’m hitting on a formula that would work for multiple books. All I was ever interested in writing was cheeseball adventures. In general writing does feel a lot less weighty and hopefully the story is more fun as a result.

I’ve also allowed myself to explore a few new concepts via pitch format, and while I don’t have them ready to pitch here was what I was thinking about:

  1. Psy High — A high school where being psychic is just something you do — so there’s sports with telekineses involved and stuff like that.
  2. Cap’n Aye Aye and the Nope Rope — On a pirate ship full of animals, the captain must deal with hearing the word ‘no’ from their snake employee. Bonus creepy primate fingers. You know which ones I’m talking about!
  3. Mx. Moxie’s Marvelous Museum of Mistakes — A nonfiction examination of notoriously bad reconstructions of animals, from this ancient Roman mosaic of a horsey wolf to the  Madgdeburg Unicorn to Victorian dinosaurs — and with a takeaway that science evolves, so we should be kind to ourselves as we learn and grow each day. Something like that. (Mx. Moxie is literally the last living Neanderthal.)

And some more Amphiox might be nice someday. Tentatively the next story would be called ‘Idolon’ and introduce a larger aspect of the world. Right now that short story draft is in an awkward place where I’d have loved to explain why Amphiox eggs are important, but it feels so cluttered in conjunction with the Idolon concept.

Just wish I could start shearing ideas off the list instead of having it grow, though.

As for the way the caterpillar’s soft, old body scrunches up at the top, just to be thrown away in favor of a shiny new carapace — Yeah, buddy, that’s exactly how it feels.

As a result of volunteering, I was very late writing my blog post here. I hope to include further Cocoon Year posts as part of my SAWgust progress. Already, I’m making a lovely amount of progress on my screenplay version of this story.

August is the worst month, but at least I have SAWgust!

Care to read more?

Cocoon Year: Weeks 37 & 38

Cocoon Year: Weeks 37 & 38

Full Steam Ahead Revising continues to feel fun. As I sort out more and more of my creative projects going elsewhere, I have more time to return to Warlock’d. Having something on each page of the script — no matter how poorly-written — makes it feel like there’s...

Cocoon Year: Weeks 35 & 36

Cocoon Year: Weeks 35 & 36

The Joy of Revision These last two weeks have been quite busy with freelance work. In between I squeak in writing. I finally came up with a full-ish script, bar the first scene and a court scene for later in the book. Now, I am reading through the script from front...

Cocoon Year: Weeks 33 & 34

Cocoon Year: Weeks 33 & 34

The Final 10% is 90% of the Work Well, I’ve done it. I wrote through each of the scenes in my new, concise and focused outline. I didn’t ‘believe’ anything that was happening as I was writing it, but on cursory glance-over, a lot of the characters feel visceral, real,...

Want to chat about this?

Cocoon Year: Weeks 29 & 30

Cocoon Year: Weeks 29 & 30

Digital art of a caterpillar mostly pupated, with its body scrunched up at the top into wrinkles and proto-wings clearly visible pressing against the shell of the green cocoon. The scrunchy caterpillar body has thick white, dark gray, and peach stripes. The art style has thin outlines and cel shading. Watermark at the bottom: http://hmcgill.art.

Cocoon Year: The Worst Month

Here’s a casual ranking of the months of the year. I really like October and November. Most other months are quite good for me, as the type of person who hunkers down by a large window and hopes rain will fall. June is all right, if a little sunny. All July has going for it is one poorly-designed holiday and traumatized cats.

And then the heat waves start.

August.

August is the worst month of the year for any vampire hermiting inside of a house without central air conditioning, and it’s easy to feel why.

Outside, the sunlight pierces, the air hangs humidly, my shirts get stinky and wet. Inside, the flies set up camp in the compost and my ears ring with the noise pollution of the portable air conditioner. A previously-walkable neighborhood becomes hostile. The asphalt soaks up sunrays and my feet sweat through the soles of my shoes. I become trapped in my own house. I must serve the whims of the housecat, who insists on all the windows being open lest she shred the blinds with her claws.

So anyway, August is my least favorite month. The office isn’t terribly comfortable and the cooler basement is a little too distracting to do much in.

Which is why I signed up to do SAWgust this year. This volunteer-run event is 31 days devoted to dreaming up a comics-related project and then getting it done. It is three years old as of this year. In year one, I created Amphiox. In year two, I ducked out very early on for lack of a concrete plan.

SAWgust is hosted on a MightyNetwork site. It is 100% free to join, even late.  

This year, I finally had an outline for Warlock’d, and a battle plan for what each scene was meant to portray in the story. So it naturally meant that that’s what I would do.

Goal: 120 pages in typical screenplay format.

As a little way of giving back to this community event, I decided to supply daily prompts to provoke other people into sharing about their projects. The prompts all have discussion questions that I may reveal later, but they also all look like this and can be used like Inktober prompts where necessary.

 

As a result of volunteering, I was very late writing my blog post here. I hope to include further Cocoon Year posts as part of my SAWgust progress. Already, I’m making a lovely amount of progress on my screenplay version of this story.

August is the worst month, but at least I have SAWgust!

Care to read more?

Cocoon Year: Weeks 37 & 38

Cocoon Year: Weeks 37 & 38

Full Steam Ahead Revising continues to feel fun. As I sort out more and more of my creative projects going elsewhere, I have more time to return to Warlock’d. Having something on each page of the script — no matter how poorly-written — makes it feel like there’s...

Cocoon Year: Weeks 35 & 36

Cocoon Year: Weeks 35 & 36

The Joy of Revision These last two weeks have been quite busy with freelance work. In between I squeak in writing. I finally came up with a full-ish script, bar the first scene and a court scene for later in the book. Now, I am reading through the script from front...

Cocoon Year: Weeks 33 & 34

Cocoon Year: Weeks 33 & 34

The Final 10% is 90% of the Work Well, I’ve done it. I wrote through each of the scenes in my new, concise and focused outline. I didn’t ‘believe’ anything that was happening as I was writing it, but on cursory glance-over, a lot of the characters feel visceral, real,...

Want to chat about this?