Cocoon Year: Weeks 37 & 38

Cocoon Year: Weeks 37 & 38

Digital art of a sprig of butterfly milkweed. It's done in a cel-shaded style with a strictly skinny clean outlines, some that are colored and some that are black. The milkweed is blooming with three little pompoms full of tiny orange flowers. Tucked under a single leaf near the bottom of the plant is a hidden cocoon. It's weird how small the cocoon is on this plant. A watermark reads http://hmcgill.art.

Full Steam Ahead

Revising continues to feel fun. As I sort out more and more of my creative projects going elsewhere, I have more time to return to Warlock’d. Having something on each page of the script — no matter how poorly-written — makes it feel like there’s something there to be molded. I’m not returning to some document that I must brute-force til the end. I’m reading some of my own writing and actually seeing what to do next, if not a clear trail marker then little bits and pieces, acorns and feathers.

I’m not sure how well my pacing is going this draft. I could be writing too much. However, snipping and adjusting also feels easy when I get to do it. Writing too much is better than not writing at all. So, I think it may be best to reserve pacing judgement for Round Two. The reason I feel confident leaving the pacing in the scenes alone right now is because I workshopped an outline which I am largely sticking to! The outline still makes sense to me and it’s very helpful that it wasn’t rushed. The writing I’m doing sticks to that outline. Therefore I don’t have to worry.

I’ve had a few people insist that I am much too hard on myself and it’s preventing projects from coming out — which is true — but I don’t actually think I’m too hard on myself. I think I’m lacking the sort of environment that can churn out a lovely polished story every few months (like a writer’s room for a TV show).  The projects not coming out or not being finished is still a problem, just not in the context of my quest to become someone who can wrangle a decent set of words. Like, no. People have to learn how to do things. Learning takes time. I’m not going to let anyone convince me to sit on my stuff as if it’s all right, when I myself am not totally satisfied with it. That’s actually really bad for my mental health!

We’ve been watching Only Murders in the Building and I have to say, the main trio of podcasting detectives has great charisma. Maybe the show is more of a comedy than a mystery, or maybe I’ve been looking at the sausage factory too intently and know too much about how the sausage is made, but I don’t feel any suspense or sense of gears turning as the plot progresses. Mystery writing used to have that feeling to me, like the author was logically laying things out.

But, maybe I should feel more free to view the mystery genre as a storytelling device. Characters, settings, and plot twists are vehicles for making something clear about a story being told backwards. Maybe the genre is also about setting expectations to an audience. In a fantasy story you generally expect the Hero’s Journey, so you have to do a fresh take on that and no amount of replacing horses with birds can do that for you. In a mystery, a relatively simple happening becomes complex with misdirections, mostly carried out through dialogue.

What I would hope for with Warlock’d is a simple murder story, but characters simultaneously progress and sidetrack that story. This all leads into a moment of fantastical wonder, with implications for the real world. But I don’t know how to do this, other than have a ton of dialogue and anecdotes towards the beginning, flashback abuse, and then plod towards the magical scene that reveals the tone of the whole thing.

Anyway. This would be so much easier with my own personal writer’s room. I think anyone would agree with that! But hey, I’ve never claimed to write literature here.

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Cocoon Year: Weeks 37 & 38

Cocoon Year: Weeks 37 & 38

Full Steam Ahead Revising continues to feel fun. As I sort out more and more of my creative projects going elsewhere, I have more time to return to Warlock’d. Having something on each page of the script — no matter how poorly-written — makes it feel like there’s...

Cocoon Year: Weeks 35 & 36

Cocoon Year: Weeks 35 & 36

The Joy of Revision These last two weeks have been quite busy with freelance work. In between I squeak in writing. I finally came up with a full-ish script, bar the first scene and a court scene for later in the book. Now, I am reading through the script from front...

Cocoon Year: Weeks 33 & 34

Cocoon Year: Weeks 33 & 34

The Final 10% is 90% of the Work Well, I’ve done it. I wrote through each of the scenes in my new, concise and focused outline. I didn’t ‘believe’ anything that was happening as I was writing it, but on cursory glance-over, a lot of the characters feel visceral, real,...

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Cocoon Year: Weeks 35 & 36

Cocoon Year: Weeks 35 & 36

Digital art of a smooth monarch butterfly chrysalis. The art style is cel-shaded with minor amounts of soft shading, and very delicate thin lineart. The chrysalis is seafoam green with subtle shine. The veins of the future butterfly's wings can be seen through the shell.

The Joy of Revision

These last two weeks have been quite busy with freelance work. In between I squeak in writing. I finally came up with a full-ish script, bar the first scene and a court scene for later in the book. Now, I am reading through the script from front and editing as I read.

This already feels so much better than what I used to do, which was write Chapter 1 and revise it a million times since I had to start at the beginning to read the draft and figure out where I was. Then, give up at the enormity of it all, and write Different Chapter 1 of Different Book.

Another pleasant discovery is that dialogue doesn’t have to be accurate to character voice during the first or second drafts. All dialogue has to do is convey important information, enough to bridge to the next scene. Mostly it’s revealing character motivation or fleshing out the setting with character opinions and senses. I can always go back and edit in character voice and conversational cadence later. Never sure which one to go for first, but…that is Future Hannah’s problem.

Yes, I am very happy with the utterly messy — and complete! — state of this first draft. Everything is there, it just needs refinement and shuffling. Already I’ve simplified additional parts of the plot in favor of clear direction. It feels really, really good, much better than slopping something wordy out and hoping a random beta reader will help me make sense of it. There is just enough of the final product peeking through the mess, it’s like a guiding light. There is just enough mess to feel fun, like I’m making meaningful changes each time I return to the story. Best of all I do feel like I can do the rest of this by myself, outside of the occasional support from my spouse.

For instance I had a dead body that gets moved around by various characters, and I was trying to get the first ‘move’ to happen on top of introducing the inn and the murder suspects. It was really clumsy so I talked it over with my spouse and we both decided that an elephant really needed to be involved. But not really. Instead the body doesn’t get moved in the first chapter, which opened up so much room for introducing the various characters and how they all might be a little bit dirty.

I have to be careful, though. Sometimes in my head the script is already ‘complete’, so it can be hard for me to wheel back into writing mode. Drawing is still much more fun than writing, so I have to convince myself to continue abandoning one for the other. The free drawing workshop is coming back from hiatus so I’ll need to reserve Thursday mornings for that once more, and hope it doesn’t keep me from writing.

However, the weather has calmed down. It’s finally back to warm jammies and blankie mode — barring the odd heat wave here and there. My favorite months of the year are coming up. I really adore fall and all the energy it gives me. Walks are just so much better when it’s cloudy out and I can wear a cute jacket.

Now, what I really need to do is knuckle down on the last few freelance tasks to open my schedule back up. I’m hoping to hurtle into a complete, revised script by the end of the year. I’m trying so hard not to rush it, to just let it get written and polished and expanded.

But I want to draw so, SO badly. I want to be challenged by landscape design and characters at weird angles and readable expressions and legible storytelling. I want to color it all in with moody themes and artsy twists.  Every time I’ve leaped into the art too early, I’ve regretted it. These days, though, I have such a hard time deciding ‘when’ to pull the trigger.

When, though?

Hopefully soon.

As a result of volunteering, I was very late writing my blog post here. I hope to include further Cocoon Year posts as part of my SAWgust progress. Already, I’m making a lovely amount of progress on my screenplay version of this story.

August is the worst month, but at least I have SAWgust!

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Cocoon Year: Weeks 37 & 38

Cocoon Year: Weeks 37 & 38

Full Steam Ahead Revising continues to feel fun. As I sort out more and more of my creative projects going elsewhere, I have more time to return to Warlock’d. Having something on each page of the script — no matter how poorly-written — makes it feel like there’s...

Cocoon Year: Weeks 35 & 36

Cocoon Year: Weeks 35 & 36

The Joy of Revision These last two weeks have been quite busy with freelance work. In between I squeak in writing. I finally came up with a full-ish script, bar the first scene and a court scene for later in the book. Now, I am reading through the script from front...

Cocoon Year: Weeks 33 & 34

Cocoon Year: Weeks 33 & 34

The Final 10% is 90% of the Work Well, I’ve done it. I wrote through each of the scenes in my new, concise and focused outline. I didn’t ‘believe’ anything that was happening as I was writing it, but on cursory glance-over, a lot of the characters feel visceral, real,...

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Cocoon Year: Weeks 33 & 34

Cocoon Year: Weeks 33 & 34

A big fat monarch butterfly caterpillar cocoon. It is hard, shiny, and ridged, colored in seafoam green. It has a little black stem at the top and the wings are clearly visible against the shell. Watermark: http://hmcgill.art.

The Final 10% is 90% of the Work

Well, I’ve done it. I wrote through each of the scenes in my new, concise and focused outline. I didn’t ‘believe’ anything that was happening as I was writing it, but on cursory glance-over, a lot of the characters feel visceral, real, and like they’re actively making decisions and speaking their mind.

The document, unformatted, is about sixty pages long. Screenplay formatting ought to at least double that. So it may be longer than necessary.

I have two scenes left to write: First is a court scene where Stone defends and exonerates all of the innocent folks in the inn, as well as explains what really happened to Margo, the murder victim.

The second scene is the intro scene to the whole catastrophe.

I’ve long had an idea of guiding the reader through the alleyways of Paris, until they get to the inn. I wonder if I can retrofit it to bring the reader into Paris, or if this is simply an undead darling that needs to die again. What I want to do is introduce the inn as:

  1. A place where people can get away from being overseen by those in power, and be themselves.
  2. Rough around the edges, but fine enough.
  3. Perhaps a bit strained by outside forces.
  4. A place that readers will care about, and will miss once it’s gone and the story’s over.

Additionally, I want to introduce the theme of friendly fire, collateral damage, and things done in the name of the ‘greater good’. There is a political movement in America that wholeheartedly believes the only ‘good’ things must happen at the cost of other’s joy. Pain is the only thing that makes something ‘real’. So, I want to address that, using the metaphor of how a king will order a farmer’s crops to be burned as the farmer retreats into the protection of his castle. The invaders must not get those crops. Therefore…no one gets them. The metaphor will extend to places of safety…ie, an inn. To ensure his people’s ‘safety’, a king would absolutely burn his own buildings.

I’m also uneasily juggling the idea of the hidden hero, who lets someone else take the stage as the driving force for half the book before calmly stepping in and being the only one actually capable of handling a demonic situation. I started out mocking these characters up as already knowing each other as rivals from University, but as I wrote it didn’t make that much sense. Stone needs to act as nothing more than a goldsmithery scribe until his real profession (necromancy) is revealed. It just seems more fun and interesting for everyone else to know Stone’s potential but this other guy does not. I need to figure out more details about how they’re supposed to interact.

Then, once new scenes are written, what remains is revision. I had wanted to do all that this month, but SAWgust wasn’t helpful this year. It seems to be only helpful when I have thumbnails and art ready to go. Otherwise I simply don’t get much feedback at all. Nobody really comments on writing progress.

In addition to that, I must respect freelance work. So, Warlock’d has slowed a bit, but I’m glad to get the chance to collect my thoughts on my progress because otherwise it would feel like I’d done no work on it at all. It turns out I’ve done plenty here and I should be happier with it.

But, I guess the anxiety comes creeping in as it always does. I’ve never felt like Warlock’d was completely welcome at the table. It’s not something people seek out to read. It’s sort of feeling like something I’m forcing. I’d like to be able to move past this but it’s hard with no one to chat it through with.

That said, I think I will finally complete it this year and be somewhat interested in my own writing. Hopefully interested enough to do the artwork for it.

As a result of volunteering, I was very late writing my blog post here. I hope to include further Cocoon Year posts as part of my SAWgust progress. Already, I’m making a lovely amount of progress on my screenplay version of this story.

August is the worst month, but at least I have SAWgust!

Care to read more?

Cocoon Year: Weeks 37 & 38

Cocoon Year: Weeks 37 & 38

Full Steam Ahead Revising continues to feel fun. As I sort out more and more of my creative projects going elsewhere, I have more time to return to Warlock’d. Having something on each page of the script — no matter how poorly-written — makes it feel like there’s...

Cocoon Year: Weeks 35 & 36

Cocoon Year: Weeks 35 & 36

The Joy of Revision These last two weeks have been quite busy with freelance work. In between I squeak in writing. I finally came up with a full-ish script, bar the first scene and a court scene for later in the book. Now, I am reading through the script from front...

Cocoon Year: Weeks 33 & 34

Cocoon Year: Weeks 33 & 34

The Final 10% is 90% of the Work Well, I’ve done it. I wrote through each of the scenes in my new, concise and focused outline. I didn’t ‘believe’ anything that was happening as I was writing it, but on cursory glance-over, a lot of the characters feel visceral, real,...

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Cocoon Year: Weeks 13 & 14

Cocoon Year: Weeks 13 & 14

Digital art of an arrangement of milkweed leaves, rendered in soft teal colors. It's a stack of leaves on a stem with one big leaf thrust into the foreground via foreshortening. All the veins can be seen in this one big oval leaf with a pointy end. Eating its tiny way through this leaf is a tiny caterpillar, near the tip. It has a lot of leaf to get through if it wants to become a proper butterfly.

Cocoon Year: March and April Summary
There was some meandering and then I came to a conclusion by the second week. I will continue treating Warlock’d like it is a webcomic that I am developing in spite of being out on pitch. It’s a risk but I will be fine.

 

 

Cocoon Week 11

I heard nothing back on the Warlock’d pitch packet (not that I was expecting a quick response). I went ahead and put together a ‘blorp art’ draft of my Troubled Histories anthology. ‘Blorp Art’ looks like this. It’s for lettering and getting the layout to agree with the artwork. I draw it directly in InDesign with the pencil tool, on my Cintiq tablet.

Screenshot of four comics pages in grayscale, with very quick, gestural art under lettered speech balloons.

I sent this draft in for editing but a friend also offered to read it for me. I sent it to my friend who pointed out a lot of clarity issues and things I needed to think about. Even though I value the editor’s feedback over at the Sequential Artist’s Workshop, I hadn’t heard back from them, so I decided to work on the artwork and get the drawings set in stone. The story has wound up with a little background story that goes on under my narration and it didn’t quite make sense, so I’ve been wrangling it and trying to get it as polished as my main message.

Digital sketch of a very ornate old lock, meant to hold a church door closed. It has crosses sticking out of it everywhere, as well as guardian animal heads and ironwork creatures twining around each other. A large crude keyhole is in the center of the lock.

Here’s the rough of my ‘cover’ page for the anthology. I’ve well and truly fallen in love with this 12th century lock that used to be on a church — perfectly conveys the meaning of ‘security theatricality’. This lock would be simple to pick, but you don’t want to make the person who owns such a fancy lock angry, would you? There’s so many dragons guarding this place…

Cocoon Week 14

I made the executive decision to proceed with working on Warlock’d as if it is not out on pitch. I need a rough script anyway. Back to my usual hijinx with a Trello board and Google Docs links, then!

Screenshot of a Trello board with stacks of digital notecards in columns. The background is a wood texture with metal studs poking through.

I like separating the story into arcs because I feel like, within a larger narrative, the reader looks for ups and downs, but they may not keep track of every single detail. ‘Oh yeah’ moments and other twists do need to be obvious but they can’t be hidden in flavor descriptions, small character interactions, or other unfair nooks in the story. Arcs set something up, bring the reader somewhere new, and resolve a setup so the reader no longer has to worry about that information as they read. After I make an outline and a detailed synopsis, I like to separate out arcs and then name them.

The arc labels could work as chapter names, but there’s only so much room in a graphic novel so I typically don’t like to separate longer stories into chapters. Separating them spends a page per chapter and every single page matters in such a visual medium.

Ideally, I want to have a rough draft of the whole graphic novel ready for whenever I secure an agent. I have several rough drafts in the past but this is the first draft that feels like it’s snapping and like I won’t regret adding detailed art to it. The writing gets riskier the closer to polished it becomes, because editors may want to have a say in what I’m writing. If it hits layout stage then it’s extra difficult to edit. However, I still think that treating this like a webcomic is my best bet moving forward. Nobody gets to dictate what I get done until they buy it!

I’ve been flipping between Warlock’d scriptwriting and more detailed roughs on my Troubled Histories project. I got notes back from the editors that matched my friend’s notes fairly closely, so I sent in a new version of my anthology submission that has more drawings on it.

 

To Do Next Week:

  1. Do perspective guides on Troubled Histories pitch.
  2. Clean up my 5-page synopsis for Warlock’d.
  3. Try not to regret sending in my pitch ‘too early’.

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Cocoon Year: Weeks 37 & 38

Cocoon Year: Weeks 37 & 38

Full Steam Ahead Revising continues to feel fun. As I sort out more and more of my creative projects going elsewhere, I have more time to return to Warlock’d. Having something on each page of the script — no matter how poorly-written — makes it feel like there’s...

Cocoon Year: Weeks 35 & 36

Cocoon Year: Weeks 35 & 36

The Joy of Revision These last two weeks have been quite busy with freelance work. In between I squeak in writing. I finally came up with a full-ish script, bar the first scene and a court scene for later in the book. Now, I am reading through the script from front...

Cocoon Year: Weeks 33 & 34

Cocoon Year: Weeks 33 & 34

The Final 10% is 90% of the Work Well, I’ve done it. I wrote through each of the scenes in my new, concise and focused outline. I didn’t ‘believe’ anything that was happening as I was writing it, but on cursory glance-over, a lot of the characters feel visceral, real,...

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